you draw your self hatred out like a kid draws out small pictures and play double dutch with the hands on a clock, knowing how unsafe it is out there, flirting with death and flicking me off when i wrote out the reasons why you should stay, that this autumn fallout is only a misconstruction of your mind's witching hour, that dystopia won't linger and utopia will be home soon, it will blossom into your lungs and turn the simplicity of your broken soul into something completely quintessential and complex, like an origami rabbit, i fold my sharp edges and twist myself to be malleable and secure for you, maybe i'm not too certain of myself or you, but i'm not too certain on a lot of subjects, i'm worried of being thrown into the arsonist world you started, covering up the sky with black dense fog, the type of fog that would happen only in dangerous wildfires i'm a controlled wildfire, but i let my fire spread just to help control your fire