I went and saw and lost myself and never thought it would happen to me like a car accident with fire trucks and ambulances and police and stretchers and pour souls waiting that will never happen to me Until down into the abyss I go and time seems to slow and I surf without getting wet pathetic just like the rest An addiction nevertheless that freezes thought in an instant and replaces them with endless searching for meaning and fragile connection Circling around, look here, no direction, life on hold and desperate without risk spinning out of control on the internet.