Poisoned memories rot through my veins. These dreams are incomprehensible, a shaky bloodbath. I am the antagonist, committing atrocities I'll instantly forget and forever regret.
There are horrible thoughts welded into my bones, I am forced to carry them in infinite tire.
And even though these plagues are as inexorable to me as my abyss-jade eyes (which will love until they fade forever)
today, I cannot help but stand in the sun
and thank myself for remaining alive to live this day.