my mother told me never to light matches around boys who smell like fire and look like smoke don't go for boys with shoulders not strong enough to carry you home don't go for boys with voices not loud enough to scream i love you when i was younger, we created a happy place in my mind to visit after nightmares you're in my nightmares now--yet --you are in my happy place correction: you are my happy place and the sky cries but i don't think it misses you as much as i do remember when you told me i could have you as long as i wanted? well tell me HOW CAN I HAVE YOU IF YOU'RE GONE HOW CAN I WATCH YOUR EYELIDS FLUTTER WHEN YOU DREAM IF YOU'RE NOT HERE NEXT TO ME i hate you