I never realized,
I never knew,
I never recognized
The pain I heard
In a voice,
The hurt I saw
In their eyes.

Today I realize
Today I know
Today I recognize
How deep that pain runs
How much that hurt kills
How difficult it is to survive

One may wonder
What triggers this
What leads to such demise
Yet now I know
There's no one thing
Unless it's name is life

So many factors
So many events
So many choices
So many thoughts
Running through my head
With no escape

All it takes
Is one more thing
And SNAP goes my sanity

I lay here thinking
Wondering
Contemplating
Could I have done something different?

One factor,
One change,
One choice
Would it make me happier?

I shall never know
If I had chosen
Other paths along the way
Whether they would lead to this
Or help me in other ways

I do believe,
Despite my pain
That this is where I should be
That one day,
Looking back,
I will see what I am meant to see

Yet for now,
I lie so fragile
Broken some may say
And think my thoughts
That hurt so much
And don't know what to say