Once you called me beautiful, for a laugh
and on my worst days I call back to that
just as I rely on ***** and dope
I rely on memories of our good days
when we could sit in bed and simmer
in eachothers warmth, I asked my friend
if I was ugly , she said no, you're not fat
anymore
but I wanted her to say "yes you are,
don't go fishing for compliments you *****"
because you used to say that.
It made your kind words mean so much more.