THE WORLD SWIMS AROUND ME FEELING THE GRASP OF AN OLD FRIEND THE IMPOTENT REELINGS OF REALITY FADE INTO A SOFT WARM EXISTENCE RELEASED NOW FROM HARD REALITY'S FREE FROM LABOURED THOUGHT WORDS FLOW UNSIFTED BY MODESTY LIKE A JACKAL LAUGHING AT THE **** IN A STUPOR I GRIN SWIMMING IN MY ENTRANCING GLOW BROKEN STRINGS OF THOUGHT TIED TOGETHER WEBBING INTO VASTNESS I DO NOT FEEL INSTEAD I RADIATE VIBRATING AT A MUCH LOWER FREQUENCY THAN THE THE NORM SADLY WITH EYES WIDE SHUT IT DAWNS ON ME NUMBNESS IS THE NEW HIP STATE OF BEING AND THOSE I JUDGE ARE MY COACHMATES ON A JOURNEY TOWARDS OF MY OWN UNDOING SELF SABOTAGE IS MY DEPRAVED MANTRA CHANTING "EVERYTIME" WON'T SAVE ANY OF US AS WE LANGUISH IN OBLIVION NEITHER HERE NOR THERE WATCHING IN ANTICIPATION A BLOSSOM BLOOMING A DEATHS HEAD HATCHING THE RANCID SWEET SMELL OF FAILURE SURROUNDS ME AS I REALIZE IT ALL GOES DOWN FROM HERE