I'm just sad.
How do I let this go?
How can I become something new?
I don't want to feel this anymore, I don't want to keep waking up and asking "Why?"
I want to be happy and see the future so bright, no matter the outcome.
I don't want to be feeling this so soon.. Or ever. I don't want to think of my life some dark hole I couldn't escape. I want to see some kind of light.
I'm tired of pretending this smile. I want it to be real.
Why can't I just think of something happy and stay happy? Why do I have to force my self to get out of bed and why do I have to force my self to see the ones I love? Shouldn't I want to without hesitation?
I'm just sad.
-D.