My anxiety is the dream of a knife almost a romantic fantasy of something physical that could cause me the pain or discomfort that really is just coming from my self from some thought that I’ve swallowed or stumbled into or onto and now it’s mine I cannot escape it.
Now it’s my burden and the choices are to feast on it or to ignore it until its white noise boiling on the backburner is all but a noose around my neck.
The laughable, socially acceptable third option is of course the bottle of red or the little white pill from the purple bottle exchanged from the pink slip handed over by a worried lip.
I envy people who check their Gmail inboxes without wincing at the potential onslaught. I get more disappointing e mails from Sephora and the Container Store than I ever do from disappointed fellow humans, but I’m sure most of the disappointed fellow humans are just too polite to write.