my heart has been feeling both numb
and heavy at the same time
there are so many souls but all of them
seem so untouchable
or maybe that’s just me
maybe i’ve shut myself off from everybody
and maybe it’s also just me—
but is there a fine line between happy and sad?
because i think i’ve blurred it out
and mixed them both up
(i am both happy and sad;
i am both brave and afraid)
i am a contradiction
and i am tired of walking along the fine lines
the way is steep and dark, filled with ghosts,
and things that haunt my heart
please clear this muddy path again,
or i’ll end up on the ugly side of the fence.