I've started to snap.
Not my fingers
Because that would be too innocent
for my brain.

I've started to snap bands.
Not my favorite group
Because that would be too innocent
for me you know.

I've started snapping rubber bands
The skinny kind
Across my wrists and arms
creating lines that welt for 10 minutes.

My words have started snapping
Mostly at people I care about
Yelling hateful things
that I haven't learned to take back.

My brain has started snapping
Mostly at myself
Cracking open and oozing lies into my ears
trying to get me to believe lies I know can't be true.

My life has started to snap.
Splitting open at the seams
Stealing my air from me
until I feel I can't catch my breath.

I've started to snap
And it's a weird feeling
Because all of this started
with a single rubber band.