if you have never found yourself picking splinters from your veins because you tried so hard to reconstruct you forgot that not everything is fixable then maybe you should stop reading
if you have never found yourself scraping the earth into your own grave wanting nothing but nothingness and the silence that comes with departure then maybe you should give up on me
because I have spent too many days hoping my mind would suffocate my being and trying to bind myself to the air around me because I hate it when things change for me to explain this only to be dismissed
there comes a time when the nights seem longer than the years and the sky stops being black velvet if you stare then you will see ink spilled across a page
there comes a time of realisation: you are a stranger to yourself you only notice you are dead when you're coughing up soil like blood only to swallow it again