have you ever dreamt
of flames and ignition
to everything you loved
and wondering why it deserved to die
wondering what you've done
and how much pain you've caused
how the world has bestowed hate upon you
why not one soul paid mind to you
and whole hearts burying themselves
because you've been targeted to death
and it has become all you want
have you ever dreamt of death
and of whole heartedly
hurting yourself
because of everything you've done to the world
because you're the problem
and you cannot fix any of it

*(c.m.e.)