Brother drowning in a plastic bag in a car driving west. 3 years old and face turning bruised as a forest’s march. It was the first time I realized that death didn’t have to be so cradled and rocked by sticks of blood. I don’t remember how long it was before Mo- ther noticed. But when she did she turned pale and ragged like old we- dding dresses, or like grandmothers’ feet.