I wish I could write All those happy thoughts That I can never seem to Cling on to
Instead everything always seems To turn into Salty saturated lashes And woodpeckers invading my heart
I always find the most beautiful words To perfectly contradict Any sweet sentence That may stumbles out of my mouth As unnaturally as an ant Birthing an elephant
My thoughts are a Nicholas Sparks novel Sweet and enchanting Until an inevitable death occurs But unlike his love stories My thoughts end at the death And then press play again
Every happy moment Is like a balloon floating up With an unseen needle tied to the string And if the wind blows just right.. POP And the deflated and defeated balloon Comes back down to me The same material as before But with a completely different appearance
So while I dream about Falling in love Wrapped up in handmade quilts While sipping warm chai tea Next to the fireplace I will instead be right here In my room Sitting on the cold hardwood floor Surrounded by four bland walls Writing about everything that could be But isn't And patiently listening to the footsteps Outside my door Waiting for them to leave
This is the unfortunate life I lead As a scarred and damaged romantic.