I want to cry and scream into your chest.
I want to yell profanities that you'll never forget.
But I want you to be beside me in the morning, so I'll refrain.
I'll cry in the shower and scream into pillows.
I'll self destruct behind closed doors.
(Because after all, that's what I'm good at).
It's time for me to learn that it's okay to break down and be alone.
I'm stronger than I was in the past.
I will bend, but I refuse to break this time.
I will not let him win.