I sit here unaware that the tapping of the yellow pencil in my right hand is disturbing my neighbor.
I used to call him every saturday morning.
As I try not to fall asleep again during first period, I think about him, about what I would take back if I could.
I'd take back that look of sincerity, because I wasn't. I'd take back all of those hours we shared in Central Park. Not because I want to erase him. I just want to erase who I was.
A girl with a reality that had been soaked in arrogance. Someone who didn't know when or why to say no.
I should have said no to him.
I loved that he loved me. Not because it was him who loved me but because it was someone new. Maybe if I tried hard enough I could have loved him back or at least pretended to.
I don't think that any amount of trying would have made me change my mind.
I can't stand people who get mad at p(r)etty things.