How could I possibly flinch when I know that I've come so far?
Is it because of all the memories? Trauma from all the scars?
I can never think of what to do or even what to say.
The insecurities blind my path so I cannot find my way.
What was a golden opportunity now seems to have gone adrift.
The tide binds me forever still as I watch this forming rift.
Afraid that I'm not good enough or that this will surely fail,
I make my fears my reality and I'm not strong enough to prevail.
If I just had a faint glimpse of what it is I'm supposed to do,
I could rise up against myself and not be so terrified of you.
I know how you feel, I've been in your shoes. But patience won my heart.
So now, I pray that your patience remains. That this won't just fall apart.
But how will I go on til then? How can I spare myself more pain?
How do I overcome this doubt and grow to be unafraid?