But it shocks me
to see that it surprises
you when I sit motionless
as you say that I will always
find a way to ruin things
Because I know this
I have always known this
This is not news to me
The one and only thing
this changes is the length
of the list of people
who have spoken these
very words in my ear
So do not grasp too tightly
at the mere thought of
this breaking me
because darling,
you are not the first
But I hope, dear god I hope
that you are the last