I look out onto the ashen fields
I look out and I wonder
I wonder if in This moment

This moment when the clouds drift
when the sun touches the horizon
when the ashen fields glow, backlit

I wonder if in this moment
when I look out onto the city bellow
where the people pass by in directions unknown
where the pigeons roost in their steel trees
where a man whimpers sick and alone in an ally

I wonder if in this moment
when I look out across the limitless ocean
with its growing swells
with its uncharted depths
with its abundance of unforgiving life

I wonder if in this moment
is it worth it?