You're a thousand I loved you's on the verge of a single I hate you.
You're worse than the wind on a stormy day when I'm just trying to keep my hair straight.
You're the reason I can't turn my back on anyone; afraid they'll take their turns stabbing me one at a time.

You're the reason I can't sleep peacefully always taking my blankets. You're the heat on a summer day making me sweat in the most uncomfortable way. You're the scream I'm holding inside because it I yell anymore I won't have a voice.

You're the constant battle between my brain and my heart. You're the awful taste in my mouth before I brush my teeth. You're the reason I've become so pessimistic about life.

And yet I waited around a couple years to see you through this tough time. I watched you turn into the same person I met. I watched my self hatred grow day by day by staying with you.

But don't worry because you're the reason I finally found a way to better myself. And without you I would have never met anyone with such disgusting qualities or known what to avoid.