When I look at you, I can feel the Nile river gushing from my arteries and separating into the most delicate of tributaries.
When I look at you, my bone marrow jolts my body forward because you’re east and i’m west but if we followed the lines of longitude it’s impossible for us not to meet again.
When I look at you, I smell bleach and roses both burning the back of my throat, one covering and the other cleaning.
When I look at you, I feel warmth but the real kind not the the heat from a couple shots of absinthe.
When I look at you my heart flys up and squeezes into the delicate space between the two hemispheres of my brain and suddenly you consume me.
So when you left
I stopped looking at you, looking for you, looking for your hands on my ribs or the hair of your leg brushing the back of my calf.
I tried to stop longing for the proclamations of love that you whispered directly into my ear so the wind couldn't ****** the seven letters before I got to hold them.
When I had looked at you I did not want to admit that the red strings that tied our calloused fingertips together had begun to fray and snap.
When your presence became to fragile for my fingers to touch and the ashes of burned rose petals would fall into my palms.
I would swallow them and try to remind myself of their-your your once velvet beauty.
But charcoal is only used to extract poison from a bloodstream.
I refused to believe that you were the poison and I would open bottle after bottle after bottle of red wine because it was my-our-your favorite type of drink. My red stained lips would get trapped on the neck of the bottle until neither alcohol nor oxygen remained inside and only shattered glass and ****** knuckles.
I tried to leave hickeys on the walls and pretend it was your neck but my lungs were too empty from my screaming.
When they burned from your absence I ate the charred alveoli and hoped it would absorb a little bit of the pain.