I am so tired.
Ive never been so tired.
Not tired as in I wanna go to sleep.
Im emotionally, physically and mentally tired.
You don't seem to understand that.
Am I anything to you at all?
Do you even care at all?
I am so tired of crying in my bed and wishing it would all end.
I am so tired of feeling like I have to runaway and escape from life.
I'm tired of feeling like i have to hurt myself to take all the ******* pain away.
I'm tired of feeling my heart crumble all the time because of you.
I am so tired of having these thoughts.
I'm trying more than I ever tried in life and you can't see that.
I just want a life with you.
I dont want to worry about everything else.
Why cant you take my hand and love me and care about me and put in the effort.
Why can't you help us live on.
Why do you have to listen to everyone and push me aside.
Why do I always come last to you.
Why can't you spend wonderful days with me and endless nights with me.
Why must you have me at home feeling like ****.
I love you. I do. But ****, you wont ever know how much I feel like you're the one.
How much you rip me and make me feel like im complete **** to you.
My heart wants you.
My heart will always want you.
I need you.
Theres so many things I wanna do with you.
We cant even do it because im NO ONE TO YOU.
IM ******* NO ONE.
IM SO TIRED OF FEELING LIKE ******* GARBAGE TO YOU.
I WANT YOU TO TRY. I WANT IT TO ALWAYS BE ME AND YOU FOREVER.
But you cant even think long term with me.
You cant ******* open up your eyes and look at me for a couple of seconds and see a girl that wants you for eternity.
I guess your too busy looking the other way at other girls. maybe.
While you think about wanting other girls, I think how much I wanna build a life with you.
While you talk bad about me, I talk about how much I love you.
The world will only seem lonely and useless if I didnt have you.
You make me feel so alive and dead at the same time.
Why cant you just see that I know what I have and I dont want you to leave me. not ever.
Why cant you take your head and turn it towards me and feel me.
Feel that I want us more than anything.
I want you no matter what.
No matter your flaws or ******* moves.
Why cant you see that I've had a hard life and I finally found someone who makes me want to live.
Why cant you see that you bring hope to me.
You cant see that you gave me the best gift ever.
You dont get it.
You're too busy listening to what others have to say.
Im your girlfriend. All i want is for you to be mine forever.
Why are you breaking me.
Jonathan, why do you have to do this to me.
I am so tired.. I am so exhausted.