When I am with you I try
so ****** hard to act cool
to pretend that I no longer care
to pretend that it does not hurt.
But when you leave my head spins.

I pretend for your sake, or so I
tell myself but inside I want to *****.
The floor rushes up to make contact with
my skull. The pain splits my vision in two.

A cacophony of noise invades my mind
screams of rage, "Say Something", Skilled
monkeys intoxicated on the trapeze, Clanging,
Clanging, Clanging, just a few simple word
could make it all stop. Make all the pain go away.
I tell myself I am being brave to keep it in
but really I am just too scared to say those words.
Afraid of the reaction, afraid of what will happen
when the clanging stops.