12:22
Last night, I was at a party where
Over-stimulation
And too much conversation
Left me shaking in a friend’s bedroom,
Because there’s nothing worse
Than making small talk
When you haven’t spoken aloud in 3 days.

15:39
I told you that I love you,
But I’m not sure that you realise
That my love is so much more than
The emotion inside;
It’s an appreciation of your perfection
So god-like it is tantamount
To my survival.

19:24
It’s been 48 hours since I last had a meal.
And I’m still not hungry because
My stomach is stuffed with the most desperate thoughts,
And the emptiness is so filling
I think I may throw up.

21:08
I could run away.
The things holding me down are part of the problem,
But I think I might like my sickness.

23:55
Earlier,
I caught sight of my face in the mirror,
My skin looked paper thin.
I am more fragile than I have ever been,
And I fear I might break myself
If you don’t shatter me first.

01:04
If I lay very still,
You might think that I’m asleep.

04:52
I don’t know if you know,
but I’m happiest when
I’m sat up all night,
crying tears that have been
stuck for weeks,
like the rush of blood
when pressure is released.