four months ago
you convinced me to lie
"I'm going to a friends house"
when really I ended up at yours

no one was home
you took me to your room
you convinced me to get in bed with you
got me naked
"do you want to?"
I don't wanna ruin so many friendships
but we did it anyways
I was so unsure

it was too late to tell you "no"
you were already on top of me
inside me
there was nothing I could do
it seemed like forever
but you were finally done
I laid there motionless

you convinced me we would be together
you lied
you used me
for all your ****** desires
your face haunts me
the memory haunts me late at night
I wish I would have never done it

your face causes great pain
it makes me want to tear myself open
and watch myself bleed out
it wishes I wasn't here
it makes me cry late at night
but no one else knows this
and I wish no one else did