I have always been jealous
Of the way you carried yourself
How you were able to get
The things I've always wanted
**** my parents couldn't afford.
I was always afraid of your might
And your scary words that your sharp tongue could conjure
I hated the way I idolized and copied
Everything about you
I was afraid you might figure it out
But I think you took it in a good way
And we became best friends
Still I feel so ever insecure whenever we go out
Your height and looks always overshadow mine
I feel like trash sitting next to your
Mulberry bag
When you speak and judge clothes,
I have to imitate you just so we could get along
I don't know what I call this
But I treat you as a best friend
But these feelings will never fade because they were the ones
That blossomed from the very beginning
I hate that.
I wish I didn't fool you
But to some point I hate you
Because you're everything I'd want to be
But can't achieve.