i'm scared.
i'm really really scared.
and i don't have the slightest clue
what i'm going to write in the black ink
or the person i'm going to be
because the person i want to be is yours
and i don't care about the cliches or the eye rolls that i get when i say that
because i want to be with you
plain and simple
it's like the white walls of a newly built house
or the down sheets of a freshly made bed.

i don't even have the tenacity to make this stupid poem (that no one will read)
sound good like all those beautiful songs that remind me of you
with melodious phrases and metaphors that make me melt like a candle that never gets blown out
what am i saying?
every song reminds me of you.
everything reminds me of you.

please just make it go away
please stay with me
just hold me
because that's the only thing i want
and the only thing i need
and that's the only thing to keep my from swallowing any more of these stupid tears that seem to never stop falling because  

i'm terrified.