I still crave your touch
your hands around my waist
your soft lips on my neck

I sought safety in your muscular arms

laying next to you was perfect
the way you held me
the way we played together

But I wore a mask around you
which I nearly took off
but I didn't want to scare you
with my ugly face or my ugly feelings
my fear of losing you was far greater than my desire to let you in
to my twisted confusing ******-up head