***** this false illusion of hope **** the promise I made cause you may not realize it... but I'm back in the middle of the street laying down drowning the conspires out with the loudest music I own but even that won't do.... my mind buzzing with lies my chest literally hurting from the stress and adrenalin gasping for air that seems to have dispersed away with you
I'm losing grip losing focus cause tears that should be fuzzing my vision are once again aren't. I can't keep our promise.. You kiss my scares in the aftermath and assume like it's still not going on..... but even you now don't notice... you can't look past my kiss... the falsehood I wear with my smile. The fact I can't ******* read or write anything properly with out a check The fact that this poetry is **** The fact that this place is no longer a sanctuary for me.
I took six-teen pebbles out I'm purging the chest pain stops the buzzing subsides the music I stop.... but then the car horn wakes me from the daze
and I realize....tonight was a bad idea it exposed my small light world of fire' and her blissful one of blood I took you to my second safe zone but I don't trust you now.... what to do, what to say is this a price I wanna pay ? questioning every word you say ...even the things of beauty...that made me fall at first anyway NO yes?
This is my goodbye to this account..... see you in another life ? or maybe on a especially good day if I see one again. winter is here.