It's all I can do To walk into the new year And pretend that I'm not crawling. To convince myself there is nothing that can fracture a heart of stone. Not shattered bones or loose ends, heaving lungs or dead friends. A smile can hide a plethora of downfalls but it cannot begin to fade the way we are addicted to the taste of our sorrows, our lips drenched in the familiarity of half dreams. I am choking on air before I can choke back the tears and my hands still aren't used to the emptiness.