I wonder what you thought
The night we met
When I pressed your palm to my cheek
And held it there as if it could keep me
From ever crying again.

I wonder what you thought when I woke up and kissed your wrist
In the middle of the night
That time I got to sleep in your arms
And held your gaze as if
Your heartbeat could keep me from ever hurting
Again.

I wonder what you think
Whenever you have to walk away from me
About how I stand there and watch you go
Until I can't possibly see you anymore.
I just stand there
Still.
Paused.
Trying to keep every last second of being near you
Until there are no more left.

I wonder what you'd think if you knew
That there have been times when I've stood like that
Long after you were far gone
Unable to quit the spot where I last saw your smile
As if somehow staying there would help me remember it.

I wonder what you think
Those times when you lean close to me
And I can feel the warmth of your cheek inches from mine
Or your hair brushes my neck
And it undoes me completely
I wonder what you think that I shudder when you're close,
Because I've seen you see me.
I've seen you know.

I wonder what you think
That I write you poems
When I can't sleep.