i embarrass him.
its obvious
the lies. the glances.
i know.

all i can do is stop eating again
and  jog for a few more hours.
but even then he'd think i was a freak.

he doesn't care about
what these boys have done to me.
scaring me half to death.
he doesn't care i wont eat for 4 days before i see him.

i just embarrass him.
that's all he wants to know.
that's all he cares about.