we pretend it doesn’t exist because
we fear to look at it
to say it’s name out loud in the daylight
would be too much
instead we whisper it on dark and foggy nights
so that no one will see us or hear us
so that no one will know our secret
so that no one will see our broken hearts
we pretend it doesn’t exist because
it does exist
and we can’t imagine how it ever came to be this way
we didn’t know how ugly it would be
how it would change us
how it would invade us
how it would devour us
we pretend it doesn’t exist because
we know it exists inside of us
it is only on those dark and foggy nights
that we whisper it
that we accept it
that we become it
The daylight is too much to bear