It's difficult to find the words,
When you can't foresee the response;
Fear grips at your soul, the purest intentions,
Leaving you unknowing and scared...
The mind draws up every outcome,
No matter how good or bad they may be;
The uncertainty is unbearable, nerve racking,
All leading up to the point you finally break...
The weight of the world comes down,
Bringing you to your knees;
Unknown is the response that will come,
And yet, the unknown is strangely calming...
They may not know the pain I feel,
Every single time they see me;
Nor do they know how much they mean,
Maybe they too have this same fear...
One can only hope this to be the case,
The world is a strange place;
Crazier things have happened in life,
To sit in the shadows or welcome the light...
Dawn comes each day,
Bringing with it new chances;
New risks and challenges to test us,
We must best them while we still can...
I'll take the risk, once again,
Despite the many failures of my past;
I'm scared, I'll be the first to admit,
But life isn't life without taking those risks...