I don't want these to be about you anymore. I don't want every word I write to bleed your name. I don't want every thought I think to revolve around your eyes. (The green ones that I remind you almost everyday only a slim percent of people have.) I want to find another him. Hopefully this new him will write about a her. Hopefully that her will be me. All I know is I wish I weren't so hungover with the love drunk thoughts of us. I wish I no longer slept with intentions of dreaming of you. I wish the "he"s would turn into "we"s. Maybe I realized that it was better that I wasn't with you or maybe I just realized you'd never want me. Perhaps I'm just lying to myself because I know there will never be another him. I may say there's another him I may write about another him I may think about another him but what I feel inside will never be about another him. It will always just be a large jig-saw puzzle of emotion. One where the feelings match to one face one face only yours.