We decided ...well i guess i decided, it would be better if we waited ...bc our relationship just wasn't ready.

but that didn't stop you.
I know you were scared because i could feel your heart as you tried to learn the angle your fingers could come inside( which hurt by the way ).

convinced this was happening i took my own shirt off , it was up to my neck anyways.
the look you gave me when you pulled at my pants ill never forget . you didnt say a word but i knew every thought in your head.
in silent glances i reassured you ,i was ready.
and on you went .
and on
and on.
i couldn't help but laugh when you asked me how to put the ****** on , being silly as always i replied "idk ive never had a ***** "
i love you .
we made out the entire time (my lip went numb )
and then you had to leave , we kissed ,we promised we wouldn't tell, and we realized we shared something special .

You were my first.and I , yours. That's special to me .