Sometimes I pray I pray that you will understand someday that I always loved you And not for a day did my love for you falter Regardless of the horrible horrible **** I did to you
Sometimes I pray You understand I never meant to hurt you but I didn't know myself I was a mirror image of that ***** that killed me That I never got to explain that whole story to you
Sometimes I pray That you will forgive me for the horrible things I said But that you would recognize the good too Because I know I told you a thousand times that you were good enough
Sometimes I sit and cry I don't ******* believe in the god I pray to I just have to do it so I don't grab the knife The knife looks so tempting sometimes and it's hard to defer death
Sometimes I wonder Why you didn't understand that I thought you were perfect from the start But that I was a ticking time bomb That last person planted something in me that you couldn't see
I'm so ******* sorry For every ******* thing I did I said horrible things I didn't mean. I ******* swear I didn't mean them
The heat of the moment caught me off guard I became the horrible stew of my father, my mother, That awful ***** who kept me trapped for almost 2 years I ******* hate her now just like you ******* hate me
But she doesn't have a heart If she does you'd need a ******* microscope to see it She was never there for me She always catered to herself
Sometimes, I ******* hate myself I might commit suicide if I keep thinking about things All I can do is try to pretend you'll forgive me Because if you don't