I couldn't say this out loud:
you are all my worst fears
my past I strive to forget
in the form of my greatest friend
my final chance
a glimmer of hope
how can trusting you be so hard
when I continue to expose My Soul to you?
I've never said no to you
this is the only thing you can't fix
I'm too afraid to say it
I can not speak the words I know will set me free
you say I never listen to your advice
oh love...I listen far too well
in your absence, I have failed you
I have given up on myself
and all the hope you gave me
I fear insanity
because I know how simple it is
to let your mind...slip
and the most pathetic part
is my dependence on You