one
tossing and turning in my sheets
I woke you up
just to tell you to sleep
now i'm waking up sorry,  
waking up wishing,
I knew how to carry myself
on those long restless nights.  
I'm talking in my sleep,
struggling to explain like last night's dream.
and I'm waking up recalling,
the scrambled words I expelled-
rearranging the letters
to make an apology
secretly hoping
they'll take to their new meaning
could we pretended i was still sleeping?
that my unconscious mind
fell into that habit,
let fear run the ride.
could I start this right?
sunshine though the window,
coffee in a cup,
leave the dark nights behind us and
just wake up.

two*
I'll mean it more when I say I hope you slept well
speak for rest and unrest
and the things we don't tell
learn just how from the moon,
to live by the stars.  
that balance of exposure and cover
that weight on my heart.
you know I've been waking up sorry
and waking up wishing
I knew how to carry myself on those long dark nights,
wishing in the dim light I could see both choices,
wish I knew which was right.