I sit here thinking how I got into this
how you got me into this mess
I know I shouldn’t be blaming you
but I couldn’t care less

I stare at you
and you do the same
what is this, I question myself
why are we playing this game?

You’re like a puzzle
but your pieces; they’re
neither here
nor there

Or maybe they have lingered
all along; hidden
in between your walls

Don’t get me started on those walls
the walls I never got through
for you could never let me
even if you wanted to

I don’t even know where I’m going with this
I’m so tired of cracking my brains,
thinking what this possibly is

I wish I could make you smile
the way you make me smile
I wish I could make you feel safe
the way I feel when you’re around

My sanity slowly evaporates into nothingness
I end up hurting myself
and as if that’s not enough,
I hurt you too