Lost in a pit of despair
Looking in retro spect
Should have changed the sequence of motions I neglected to face
Avoiding the signs
Pretending
Scheming
Forgetting
Remembering a moment too late
Seconds
Minutes
Hours
Countless hours spent
Searching for the right melody to sing
To play
To listen and speak
Fighting the loosing battle
Nothing but weak
Pathetic and helpless
A joke
So full yet so empty
So warm yet so cold
So understanding yet so ignorant
Silence
Keep quiet
Fake a smile
Share a laugh
Hoping that one day
Maybe one day
This will all be a dream
Fake and unreal
What is it?
Unspeakable force weighing on your shoulders
Controlling your mind
Speaking your thoughts
Is it you?
Does it make up who you are?
Who are you?
A whisper?
A secret?
Kept locked away brewing and boiling every minute it is ignored
Constantly fighting to break free from the cage so well built
Yet so collapsible
So broken
The battle will never be won
This entity will never be overcome
Outgrown
Forgotten
The shadow creeps close behind
Barely touching me
Yet I can feel the presence
I can feel it grow stronger every day
And every day I feel the darkness spreading
Creeping through each layer
Breaking through every door
Stalking
Lurking
Capturing
Controlling
Loose who you are
What you are
Where you are
How you are
The girl you once knew
Now a pathetic shadow of what use to be good
Blood turned sour
Spirit starting to rot
Happiness eroding away
Drifting off into the sea of empathy
Down the vortex of black
Crumpled up and thrown away
Memory haunts her
Day after day
Living each lie
Each worthless second in her miserable life
Worthless and alone
She closes are eyes
Waiting for the constant thumping to cease
And for the battle to be lost.