I wish I could go hours Without checking my phone To see if I've missed anything, Or if anything missed me.
I wish I could go days Without speaking to anyone To see if these thoughts inside my head Could just quiet down.
I wish I could go months Without thinking of myself To instead become more selfless, engaged in Helping others.
I wish I could go years Without this hatred that I feel Towards myself and everyone else, Maybe then I could gain some inner peace.
But people start to worry, They murmur, whisper-talk, "What's wrong with her, Why is she not responding, to us, to anything. Is it a phase? Is she okay?"
I wish they would realize That being silent is helping, Healing. They just don't understand what it means.
I wish they would understand Going silent is saving me, And that I wasn't all that put together in the first place, When I reacted to every thought, movement, or action made.
I wish I could tell them That I'm not alright, That I'm tired of talking, replying, being a functional human, But it seems I've lost my voice.