you know that feeling when it's late at night
and your head is screaming, "you'll never be enough for anyone"?

or when it's early in the morning
and you can't sleep because you're dreaming that you're alive?

you know when you're alone in your room
and the doors are locked and blood is spilling from your wrists?

you know when you're in a room full of people
and you can't breathe because you feel so alone?

or when your friends are talking excitedly about their futures
and you're sitting there hoping you have none?

or when they ask you to go out with them
and you can't because gravity is pulling you down into your mattress?



                                                      i guess i never thought i would know.