How we learn to hate ourselves- Some of us never do anything wrong, we are innocent souls Taking punishment we don't deserve, whether it be neglect or abuse or misfortune It happens when we're supposed to be growing, hitting milestones, but instead We can't comprehend all of the things happening to us When our fathers leave us When our mothers abuse us When there's no food in the house except the kind of plants you're (not) supposed smoke That only occasionally make their way into the brownies That you can't even eat
How we learn to hate ourselves- Some of us make mistakes when we're older, but we're still goodhearted But we'd just gone through some of the above, we had it really rough We learned to like it rough and we learned to be the neglect or abuse or misfortune It happens when its all you've known When you feel guilty for making someone cry When you've got a friend in need and you don't know how to care because nobody cared for you When you tell someone else your problems are bigger than theirs and all you can think of is That you just made their problems bigger than yours And you can't live it down
After we learn to hate ourselves- Some of us deliberately commit our mistakes as if we're addicted to the sadness and conflict We become mirror images of the people we said we never would be and don't even realize it We get the attitude of "Whatever if you hate me because I don't love you anyway" We learn to push our loved one's buttons on purpose just like people pushed ours When it happens we become their burden Like when I told someone "I'm only talking to you right now because if I wasn't you'd be hurting yourself" When you make someone else feel completely insignificant just because they misunderstood Something stupid you mentioned That you crush them completely
But only sometimes Do we realize How we learn to be The monsters we become