I've always written about her,
every word, every thought,
all seemed to stem from her memory
i needed her to say something,
i needed her to just give up on me,
and she wouldn't.

reaching for an empty glass,
reaching out for you.
and you wanted nothing to do with it
"once upon a time i promised we'd be okay"
now we are everything but
my mind accepts that as the gift it is
your words say you haven't let me go,
you haven't given up,

but I've let you go
I'm over you
a false love, now completely gone
its hard to say i never cared
yet that's all i have left!

i threw away our old pictures, deleted you from my phone!
laughed at all you'd written me in my drunkenness!

and finally succeed in not caring about you...

i said it...
i
don't
care
to be friends, to make things civil
to confide every lie, and every pain, in you...

your name a familiar sound to my mouth
only foreign and acidic
my thoughts of you, gone
the area you occupied inside me, vacant
waiting to be filled by something else

my god, i have forgotten you
your face
your touch
your lips
all gone from my empty memory
all replaced with a numb
a sadly comforting numbness

i have forgotten you my dear

now can i move on?!
can i live my life?!
can you live yours?!
can you stop caring?!
can you give up any hope you've ever had?!

oh god, i have forgotten you...