I fear
That when you went away
Without any notice
And suffered for so long
All alone
You took away
My ability to suffer
You took it all
For yourself
Along with my ability
To get butterflies
From other boys
Like I used to with you
And my ability to
Even want to smile when they
Give me the attention
I have so been craving
You've left me
In this perpetually alone state
With no explanation
And no guide
On how to survive
This emptiness
And now
Here you are
Back and asking for more
But you already have my more
You have it all
And I know
I could never ask for it back
Because neither one of us
Understands any of it
You don't know what you do
And I
I don't know what state I am left in
So my plan
Is to sit here
In this chauvinistic fog
Until I slowly disappear
Out of insignificance
And necessity.