i remember when
the avenue was empty
and street lights lead the way
the world was freezing
but i finally felt warm
my hands grazed the evergreen
contents in my pocket
“the city is supposed to scare you”
i told myself over and over
i was scared for sure

it may have been a vacation
but it felt just like an other tuesday
walking to the theatre
seeing a show i’d seen 100 times
turns out you didn’t need
120 dollars just the thirty
from the deposit on monday
i could spend the rest
on more useless items
to fill the absent void of my walls

walking out i knew
i could stroll two blocks east
to my best friend
i could walk 20 blocks south
to my residing hall
walking out i knew the city is just
a cheap thrill for the power hungry
an outlandish dream for the useless
i remember when i finally felt home
in a place that is home to no one