Dec 2013
1.** When you would see him,
You would think he was the most beautiful creature
But when he kissed the palm of your hands,
They left a trail of fire that burned
A hole the size of the Milky Way
You convinced yourself each night
After the last person,
You wouldn’t fall back in
For writing creates the same pain
As loving someone does
2. You kept me tucked between your lips
Like a tab in a worn book that
You can flip back to when you are bored and lonely
3. You taught me how to keep
My words in my head
Stuck to my tongue
Like sandpaper rubbing back and forth on metal
To pick my words carefully
To filter my thoughts out
4. You were the equivalent to
An ugly red infection that
Needed to be surgically removed
But instead was picked out with a fork
5. He does not love you
He is not your Prince Charming
He will not come for you in the pouring rain
Stop waiting.
6. He sees you as a child
With more growing to do
You were a ****** up enormity
That needed to find its place
Years beyond your age
But sometimes you would question
Who the older one truly was
7. Two beings on different trails
One was a star
And the other was a tree
Deeply rooted to its morals
And the other flying around freely
He bought you things
Without being asked
Visited you
And even kissed you
He thought you were beautiful
But he stopped
And he left
And he will not return
8. He does not worry for you
He did not think twice when
You told him you wanted to **** yourself
He did not say anything
But stare
When he saw your scarred arms
With all the past experiences
Each one whispering
A new story
A new person
And a new future
9. His eyes
Were full of life
While yours
Were dull and
He knew then,
What monstrosity you were inside
When he said
“An outlet for what is upstairs”
You translated it as
“An outlet to get away from me”
“An outlet to leave me alone”
“An outlet to
Cover up the past
And patch up the future”
10. He burned you
Out of his life
Like a cigarette ****
Against a wooden table
Or a glass tray
That he found lost in his attic
And you did too
It took time,
And lots of nights spent crying
But you did,
And you are free.
You would think he was the most beautiful creature
But when he kissed the palm of your hands,
They left a trail of fire that burned
A hole the size of the Milky Way
You convinced yourself each night
After the last person,
You wouldn’t fall back in
For writing creates the same pain
As loving someone does
2. You kept me tucked between your lips
Like a tab in a worn book that
You can flip back to when you are bored and lonely
3. You taught me how to keep
My words in my head
Stuck to my tongue
Like sandpaper rubbing back and forth on metal
To pick my words carefully
To filter my thoughts out
4. You were the equivalent to
An ugly red infection that
Needed to be surgically removed
But instead was picked out with a fork
5. He does not love you
He is not your Prince Charming
He will not come for you in the pouring rain
Stop waiting.
6. He sees you as a child
With more growing to do
You were a ****** up enormity
That needed to find its place
Years beyond your age
But sometimes you would question
Who the older one truly was
7. Two beings on different trails
One was a star
And the other was a tree
Deeply rooted to its morals
And the other flying around freely
He bought you things
Without being asked
Visited you
And even kissed you
He thought you were beautiful
But he stopped
And he left
And he will not return
8. He does not worry for you
He did not think twice when
You told him you wanted to **** yourself
He did not say anything
But stare
When he saw your scarred arms
With all the past experiences
Each one whispering
A new story
A new person
And a new future
9. His eyes
Were full of life
While yours
Were dull and
He knew then,
What monstrosity you were inside
When he said
“An outlet for what is upstairs”
You translated it as
“An outlet to get away from me”
“An outlet to leave me alone”
“An outlet to
Cover up the past
And patch up the future”
10. He burned you
Out of his life
Like a cigarette ****
Against a wooden table
Or a glass tray
That he found lost in his attic
And you did too
It took time,
And lots of nights spent crying
But you did,
And you are free.
