mother, mother, don’t you know i’m in here? mother, mother, don’t you want me any more?
you say you want me you chose to have me why do you torment me so?
i was planned for after all (to patch a failing marriage) though you seem distant from my father (but planned for nonetheless) and now you fight me with your addiction (as you second guess my life)
you drink away your sorrows, filling my liver with liquid poison perhaps unaware perhaps not caring what you could do to me.
my brain is like a sponge. it soaks up everything you give me. but unlike a sponge, i cannot wring it out and make it clean again, no matter how hard i try.
and now i must fight the battle of your addiction for the rest of my life, because you could not bring yourself under control when i needed you the most.
This was written as part of a FASD awareness project for my psychology class. It explores the perspective of an unborn infant, speaking to their alcoholic mother about the consequences of her alcoholism.